ken and shou created by mustachemutt
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  • The end may come before we were ready to get there.
    But always remember: life isn't about getting to the end.

    It's always heartbreaking to see people you love pass away.

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  • I've been on here for years, with comments disabled. But today I searched for an old comic I loved before I knew what it would mean to me...

    I learned in recent years that I have what's probably a neurodegerative disease or something, or will progress into one. And it's already taking things away from me. I'm most certainly not going to be able to live to average life expectancy, and I'm worried about becoming too far gone to end things before I become a brainless burden that doesn't know who he is anymore. The countermeasures I've thought of would involve having other people assess me and tell me the trigger phrase which I'll mentally tie to a strong and concise memory of doing what I should...but how can I place that burden on others?

    I'm not afraid of most things anymore, even death, but I'm terrified of losing who I am, and even moreso of doing so alone.
    I don't want anyone to go through this horrid thing next to me...but I don't want to be alone anymore...
    I'm so scared to ask for help...
    And ironically what keeps me going is just forgetting about all of this.

    Willingly forgetting my heart's desire, so that I can live long enough to forget about everything unwillingly. What a cruel joke.

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